Hate is Such a Strong Word

Hate.
Hate is a strong word...
but for you...
my feelings are strongly suggesting that it would be okay...
just this once...
to say honestly...
that i hate you...
before i saw the beauty in you...
but now all i see is this ugly little troll...
before i had a friend...
now a criminal...
because you murdered what we had...
you tried to cover it up with pretty little things...
lies, lies, lies...
but little did you know...
that the ugly little monster rips and shreds pretty little things til there's nothing left...
nothing left but the truth...
and the truth is...
sometimes unforgiving...
fucking ruthless...
just like me...
and the truth is ...
sometimes also...
fucking ugly...
just like you.

By Kimberly
Dedicated to the ex in my previous post from yesterday.
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Strong Hate

I am so sick of the idiot I'm stuck married to. He's making my decision of divorce so much easier... he makes my blood boil. It was yet another weekend of putting up with his shit. I can't even talk to friends on the phone without him going psycho. That boy needs some serious councelling and meds... I don't think anyone can fix his brain... he is just a nasty person.

Pray For Me

I need to some how come up with $250 by July 1st for rent...since I lost my job. Rachid wont help me out at all...he will only give me $700 for the rent. Shouldn't husband and wife support eachother in time of need? How many times have I supported him when he wasn't working...he was always looking for a job when he had to work cash. He's a peice of shit that I now know 100% that I must get rid of. This is not a marriage that I'm in...roomates are better then him. Even if I had a roomate and they lost their job and needed a little help I would be understanding and help them out that month...he is not a man...he was a waste of time.

I pray that I get this Telus job...if I don't, I don't know what I will do. I am so upset and confused right now...I don't know how I can live without it. I need to get out of here once and for all and never look back. I need to find a cute basement apartment for like $600/month. I have to get a divorce asap.

Please pray for me to stay strong through this all.