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Tuesday, 26 January 2016
Thursday, 8 January 2015
Treating Depression with Technology at Home or Work
Many people need the natural sunlight to feel like themselves. While they can handle a few cloudy days, they may suffer from depression and fatigue when the seasons change from summer to winter. The days get shorter and the sunlight becomes less plentiful, leading to some people suffering from a condition called seasonal affective disorder, or SAD. When they want to feel better without having to take medications or moving to a different geographical location, people may cure their own SAD by using technology like SAD lighting.
The lights themselves differ from the light given off by a regular bulb or even a computer screen. These sources of light are artificial and a bit harsh. However, SAD lights seem to be more natural and help the body release the hormones necessary to relieve depression. When people sit under these lights throughout the day, they experience the same light that is found in the natural outdoor sunlight. Their depression may lessen, letting them feel and function better.
When people decide that this technology is for them, they can check out the different models of SAD lights that are available online. Using the information that is printed on the site, as well as the pictures, they can explore the various sizes and models before choosing one that suits their budget and available space.
The lights themselves differ from the light given off by a regular bulb or even a computer screen. These sources of light are artificial and a bit harsh. However, SAD lights seem to be more natural and help the body release the hormones necessary to relieve depression. When people sit under these lights throughout the day, they experience the same light that is found in the natural outdoor sunlight. Their depression may lessen, letting them feel and function better.
When people decide that this technology is for them, they can check out the different models of SAD lights that are available online. Using the information that is printed on the site, as well as the pictures, they can explore the various sizes and models before choosing one that suits their budget and available space.
Treating Depression with Technology at Home or Work
Many people need the natural sunlight to feel like themselves. While they can handle a few cloudy days, they may suffer from depression and fatigue when the seasons change from summer to winter. The days get shorter and the sunlight becomes less plentiful, leading to some people suffering from a condition called seasonal affective disorder, or SAD. When they want to feel better without having to take medications or moving to a different geographical location, people may cure their own SAD by using technology like SAD lighting.
The lights themselves differ from the light given off by a regular bulb or even a computer screen. These sources of light are artificial and a bit harsh. However, SAD lights seem to be more natural and help the body release the hormones necessary to relieve depression. When people sit under these lights throughout the day, they experience the same light that is found in the natural outdoor sunlight. Their depression may lessen, letting them feel and function better.
The lights themselves differ from the light given off by a regular bulb or even a computer screen. These sources of light are artificial and a bit harsh. However, SAD lights seem to be more natural and help the body release the hormones necessary to relieve depression. When people sit under these lights throughout the day, they experience the same light that is found in the natural outdoor sunlight. Their depression may lessen, letting them feel and function better.
Friday, 7 November 2014
Beating Depression
Winston Churchill referred to his continuous bouts of depression "the black dog." President Abraham Lincoln, who battled with depression his entire adult life, once stated, "I am now probably the most miserable man living." Until very recently, our understanding and methods of treatment of the various types of depression almost always very poor; and most people are usually reluctant to admit that they had problems with depression even once they understood that they had it.
Thanks to a lot of research that has been done in more recent years, A lot of new types of medications for treating depression, and a much deeper understanding of exactly how depression works, the days of misunderstanding are long gone. Prior to a few years ago, most celebrities and public figures have gone public with their own experiences with depression. Amongst them are people such the famous newsman Mike Wallace and humorist Art Buchwald, actresses Brooke Shields and Lorraine Bracco, Tipper Gore and Alanis Morrisette, as well as many others. Their stories about their problems with depression has really helped Americans understand depression in a totally different light than we used to.
In her book which is titled "Down Came the Rain: My Journey Through Postpartum Depression", Shields(the author) discusses her battle with depression. "I just felt as though I would never be happy again, and as if I had fallen into a big black hole." But Shields and as well as many others have gotten help in various different forms, and they know that depression can be treated using modern medicine.
"There's nothing, repeat, nothing to be ashamed of when you're going through a depression," says 60 Minutes' newsman Mike Wallace, whom has been in many different public service bulletins about depression for CBS. "If you get help, the chances of your licking it are really good. But, you have to get yourself onto a safe path."
"There's help. It's treatable," writes Lorraine Bracco in her book-On the Couch. "Getting treatment for depression was the best decision I ever made; going public about it was the second best." However many people who live even in our present day still go through a battle with this baffling condition that often leaves people feeling unhappy, worthless, and uninterested in any of their day to day activities. Different symptoms can include sleeplessness or oversleeping, loss of energy, weight increases as well as loss, and even thoughts of suicide.
The Nationwide Institute of Mental Health (NIMH) is on the forefront of research on the several types of depression, the ways to treat each of them, and on methods to help the American public understand that they are not alone and that there is treatment available for depression. Step one, say NIMH researchers, is to understand that there are several kinds of depression and to understand what treatments are available. You need to talk to a mental health professional- or even your doctor.
Symptoms of Depression
Not everyone who is depressed or manic experiences the same symptoms. It is important to remember that you will likely not experience *that* many of the symptoms on this list. The severity of symptoms can also vary among individuals and the severity of the symptoms can also change dramatically over time.
* Persistent sadness, anxiety, or just "empty" feeling.
* Emotions of hopelessness or pessimism.
* Feelings of guilt, worthlessness, or helplessness.
* Loss of interest in hobbies and actions that you once found pleasurable, including sex.
* Decrease in energy or feeling fatigued all the time
* Difficulty making decisions, remembering everyday things, or even concentrating.
* Unusual trouble sleeping, you may wake early in the morning or oversleep often
* Noticeable changes in weight or appetite.
* Thoughts of death or suicide, or attempting to commit suicide.
* Restlessness or irritability.
* Persistent physical symptoms such as digestive problems and chronic pains that don't respond to regular treatments
Types of depression
Depression can come in completely different forms. Each of these also have a variety of symptoms, severity, and persistence.
* Major depression can have a mix of symptoms that include problems thinking, sleeping, eating, and taking part in previously pleasurable activities. Major depression doesn't have to be persistent, a major depressive episode can happen only once; however sometimes, several episodes ca happen through the course of someones life.
* Dysthymia, a less extreme kind of depression, usually is associated with longlasting, continual symptoms that don't significantly disable the person, but keep you from functioning properly or feeling good.
* Bipolar disorder, which is also called manic depressive disorder, is characterized by cycling mood adjustments: extreme highs, known as mania, as well as lows, depression, usually with periods of more normal moods in between.
* Postpartum depression can make new mothers really feel restless, anxious, fatigued, and worthless. Some new mothers fear they will harm themselves or their babies. In contrast to the "baby blues," postpartum depression doesn't necessarily go away quickly. Most researchers assume that modifications to a girl's hormone levels during and after pregnancy may lead to postpartum depression.
* Seasonal affective disorder, which is sometimes called SAD, has been linked to a biochemical imbalance in the brain prompted by daylight hours that don't last as long and a lack of daylight in winter. Some individuals might sleep too much, have little energy, and crave sweets and starchy foods.
Beating Depression With Medication
There are a number of types of medicines used to deal with depression. These include newer antidepressant medicines-which are mostly referred to as selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors (SSRIs)-and older ones, called tricyclics and monoamine oxidase inhibitors. In addition to medicines, a type of psychotherapy called cognitive behavioral therapy can also assist relieve depression. Sometimes, a health care provider will try a large selection of antidepressants in order to find the most effective medication or mixture of medications for the each individual.
Selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors (SSRIs):
* citalopram (brand title: Celexa)
* escitalopram (brand name: Lexapro)
* fluoxetine (brand name: Prozac)
* paroxetine (brand names: Paxil, Pexeva)
* sertraline (brand name: Zoloft)
Tricyclics:
* amitriptyline (brand name: Elavil)
* desipramine (brand name: Norpramin)
* imipramine (brand name: Tofranil)
* nortriptyline (brand name: Aventyl, Pamelor)
Article originally published on InfoBarrel by Jeckyll, May 30th 2010.
Thanks to a lot of research that has been done in more recent years, A lot of new types of medications for treating depression, and a much deeper understanding of exactly how depression works, the days of misunderstanding are long gone. Prior to a few years ago, most celebrities and public figures have gone public with their own experiences with depression. Amongst them are people such the famous newsman Mike Wallace and humorist Art Buchwald, actresses Brooke Shields and Lorraine Bracco, Tipper Gore and Alanis Morrisette, as well as many others. Their stories about their problems with depression has really helped Americans understand depression in a totally different light than we used to.
In her book which is titled "Down Came the Rain: My Journey Through Postpartum Depression", Shields(the author) discusses her battle with depression. "I just felt as though I would never be happy again, and as if I had fallen into a big black hole." But Shields and as well as many others have gotten help in various different forms, and they know that depression can be treated using modern medicine.
"There's nothing, repeat, nothing to be ashamed of when you're going through a depression," says 60 Minutes' newsman Mike Wallace, whom has been in many different public service bulletins about depression for CBS. "If you get help, the chances of your licking it are really good. But, you have to get yourself onto a safe path."
"There's help. It's treatable," writes Lorraine Bracco in her book-On the Couch. "Getting treatment for depression was the best decision I ever made; going public about it was the second best." However many people who live even in our present day still go through a battle with this baffling condition that often leaves people feeling unhappy, worthless, and uninterested in any of their day to day activities. Different symptoms can include sleeplessness or oversleeping, loss of energy, weight increases as well as loss, and even thoughts of suicide.
The Nationwide Institute of Mental Health (NIMH) is on the forefront of research on the several types of depression, the ways to treat each of them, and on methods to help the American public understand that they are not alone and that there is treatment available for depression. Step one, say NIMH researchers, is to understand that there are several kinds of depression and to understand what treatments are available. You need to talk to a mental health professional- or even your doctor.
Symptoms of Depression
Not everyone who is depressed or manic experiences the same symptoms. It is important to remember that you will likely not experience *that* many of the symptoms on this list. The severity of symptoms can also vary among individuals and the severity of the symptoms can also change dramatically over time.
* Persistent sadness, anxiety, or just "empty" feeling.
* Emotions of hopelessness or pessimism.
* Feelings of guilt, worthlessness, or helplessness.
* Loss of interest in hobbies and actions that you once found pleasurable, including sex.
* Decrease in energy or feeling fatigued all the time
* Difficulty making decisions, remembering everyday things, or even concentrating.
* Unusual trouble sleeping, you may wake early in the morning or oversleep often
* Noticeable changes in weight or appetite.
* Thoughts of death or suicide, or attempting to commit suicide.
* Restlessness or irritability.
* Persistent physical symptoms such as digestive problems and chronic pains that don't respond to regular treatments
Types of depression
Depression can come in completely different forms. Each of these also have a variety of symptoms, severity, and persistence.
* Major depression can have a mix of symptoms that include problems thinking, sleeping, eating, and taking part in previously pleasurable activities. Major depression doesn't have to be persistent, a major depressive episode can happen only once; however sometimes, several episodes ca happen through the course of someones life.
* Dysthymia, a less extreme kind of depression, usually is associated with longlasting, continual symptoms that don't significantly disable the person, but keep you from functioning properly or feeling good.
* Bipolar disorder, which is also called manic depressive disorder, is characterized by cycling mood adjustments: extreme highs, known as mania, as well as lows, depression, usually with periods of more normal moods in between.
* Postpartum depression can make new mothers really feel restless, anxious, fatigued, and worthless. Some new mothers fear they will harm themselves or their babies. In contrast to the "baby blues," postpartum depression doesn't necessarily go away quickly. Most researchers assume that modifications to a girl's hormone levels during and after pregnancy may lead to postpartum depression.
* Seasonal affective disorder, which is sometimes called SAD, has been linked to a biochemical imbalance in the brain prompted by daylight hours that don't last as long and a lack of daylight in winter. Some individuals might sleep too much, have little energy, and crave sweets and starchy foods.
Beating Depression With Medication
There are a number of types of medicines used to deal with depression. These include newer antidepressant medicines-which are mostly referred to as selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors (SSRIs)-and older ones, called tricyclics and monoamine oxidase inhibitors. In addition to medicines, a type of psychotherapy called cognitive behavioral therapy can also assist relieve depression. Sometimes, a health care provider will try a large selection of antidepressants in order to find the most effective medication or mixture of medications for the each individual.
Selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors (SSRIs):
* citalopram (brand title: Celexa)
* escitalopram (brand name: Lexapro)
* fluoxetine (brand name: Prozac)
* paroxetine (brand names: Paxil, Pexeva)
* sertraline (brand name: Zoloft)
Tricyclics:
* amitriptyline (brand name: Elavil)
* desipramine (brand name: Norpramin)
* imipramine (brand name: Tofranil)
* nortriptyline (brand name: Aventyl, Pamelor)
Article originally published on InfoBarrel by Jeckyll, May 30th 2010.
Beating Depression
Winston Churchill referred to his continuous bouts of depression "the black dog." President Abraham Lincoln, who battled with depression his entire adult life, once stated, "I am now probably the most miserable man living." Until very recently, our understanding and methods of treatment of the various types of depression almost always very poor; and most people are usually reluctant to admit that they had problems with depression even once they understood that they had it.
Thanks to a lot of research that has been done in more recent years, A lot of new types of medications for treating depression, and a much deeper understanding of exactly how depression works, the days of misunderstanding are long gone. Prior to a few years ago, most celebrities and public figures have gone public with their own experiences with depression. Amongst them are people such the famous newsman Mike Wallace and humorist Art Buchwald, actresses Brooke Shields and Lorraine Bracco, Tipper Gore and Alanis Morrisette, as well as many others. Their stories about their problems with depression has really helped Americans understand depression in a totally different light than we used to.
Thanks to a lot of research that has been done in more recent years, A lot of new types of medications for treating depression, and a much deeper understanding of exactly how depression works, the days of misunderstanding are long gone. Prior to a few years ago, most celebrities and public figures have gone public with their own experiences with depression. Amongst them are people such the famous newsman Mike Wallace and humorist Art Buchwald, actresses Brooke Shields and Lorraine Bracco, Tipper Gore and Alanis Morrisette, as well as many others. Their stories about their problems with depression has really helped Americans understand depression in a totally different light than we used to.
Monday, 11 August 2014
The Loss of a Great Man - RIP #RobinWilliams #Depression
"Robin Williams was an airman, a doctor, a genie, a nanny ... and everything in between. But he was one of a kind." —President Obama
— Barack Obama (@BarackObama) August 12, 2014Depression is SO real! It isolates PPL making them feel stuck. Hurting in secret stinks!! Pastors, actors it effects all ppl. #RobinWilliams
— REALTALKKIM (@RealTalkKim) August 11, 2014#RobinWilliams so tragic. He was such a talent. Depression/mental health is something we need to talk about.
— Carolyn Jarvis (@Carolyn16x9) August 11, 2014Depression is a real disease. Don't judge if you've never walked through that dark tunnel. It's a sad day. RIP Robin Williams.
— Michelle Joy Phelps (@MichellePhelps) August 12, 2014 The Loss of a Great Man - RIP #RobinWilliams #Depression
"Robin Williams was an airman, a doctor, a genie, a nanny ... and everything in between. But he was one of a kind." —President Obama
— Barack Obama (@BarackObama) August 12, 2014
Depression is SO real! It isolates PPL making them feel stuck. Hurting in secret stinks!! Pastors, actors it effects all ppl. #RobinWilliams
— REALTALKKIM (@RealTalkKim) August 11, 2014
#RobinWilliams so tragic. He was such a talent. Depression/mental health is something we need to talk about.
— Carolyn Jarvis (@Carolyn16x9) August 11, 2014
Depression is a real disease. Don't judge if you've never walked through that dark tunnel. It's a sad day. RIP Robin Williams.
— Michelle Joy Phelps (@MichellePhelps) August 12, 2014
Thursday, 27 March 2014
You're A Bully!
I'm amazed at how someone would take the time to write nasty comments on my blog. Of course I deleted them, as they're a form of abuse. My blog is a form of therapy... it helps relieve the stress from a hard day. It's pretty much a digital diary, that I write whenever I feel the need to vent or share what's on my mind. Leaving a nasty comment is a form of bullying. How would you feel if someone kept doing that to your child or someone you love? How would you feel if you were the one being attacked? And for what... because you didn't receive a prize, which was something that took up MY time, not yours. Do NOT write negative stuff on my blog in the comment section... especially on a blog that deals with anxiety, depression, and is owned by someone who was previously suicidal. STOP BULLYING!
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You're A Bully!
I'm amazed at how someone would take the time to write nasty comments on my blog. Of course I deleted them, as they're a form of abuse. My blog is a form of therapy... it helps relieve the stress from a hard day. It's pretty much a digital diary, that I write whenever I feel the need to vent or share what's on my mind. Leaving a nasty comment is a form of bullying. How would you feel if someone kept doing that to your child or someone you love? How would you feel if you were the one being attacked? And for what... because you didn't receive a prize, which was something that took up MY time, not yours. Do NOT write negative stuff on my blog in the comment section... especially on a blog that deals with anxiety, depression, and is owned by someone who was previously suicidal. STOP BULLYING!
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Friday, 8 November 2013
I'm Back and Ready to Let it All Out... Update On My Life

I've been away from blogging for quite some time now. I was having issues with my computer... it finally crapped out on me. But prior to that I've been going through some stressful stuff. When I first started writing this blog, it was for therapeutic purposes, to help me deal with the stress that was going on in my life. I miss doing that, as I haven't completely opened up on here for a long time.
I've been feeling quite confused and alone, and really not that many people in my circle of friends and family can fully understand what I'm going through. My anxiety is at an all time high, but amazingly enough I've been able to somewhat manage it without feeling like I'm going crazy. Don't get me wrong, many times I felt like I was losing my shit, and needed to visit my psychiatrist more often then my usual monthly appointment.
What's contributing to my stress? The culture shock of my in-laws... my lack of ability to be there at their family functions. Just thinking about it makes me anxious, and neither him or his family could ever understand my mental illness. I guess part of the problem I created myself... if I had of married someone of the same religion and culture, maybe I wouldn't be having these issues. The crappy part about that though, is I'm mostly attracted to brown men... hence the title of my blog "A Spicy Boy, A Cat, and My Fat Ass". There's never a shortage of drama in my life the last little while, and it's taking a toll on me and my health.
Another thing that is breaking my heart, is that a dear friend of mine has cancer of the lymph-nodes. She said that her doctor said out of all the cancers to have, that it's the best one. I dunno... I'm fuckin panicking. With cancer being in her immediate family, it scares me to think of losing her before we're both grey and old. She has to go for surgery after the holidays, as well as a treatment of radiation. And on top of that her dad has heart trouble and has had surgery around the same time as my mom. By the way, my mom is doing quite well since her double bypass surgery. Mom doing better is at least one thing that I can finally breathe about.
Everything that's going on has gotten to the point that it's affecting my work. I can't concentrate, I'm extra emotional, and I'm having yet another hard time managing a regular life. Don't let my smile fool you... I feel broken half of the time.
I'm Back and Ready to Let it All Out... Update On My Life

I've been away from blogging for quite some time now. I was having issues with my computer... it finally crapped out on me. But prior to that I've been going through some stressful stuff. When I first started writing this blog, it was for therapeutic purposes, to help me deal with the stress that was going on in my life. I miss doing that, as I haven't completely opened up on here for a long time.
I've been feeling quite confused and alone, and really not that many people in my circle of friends and family can fully understand what I'm going through. My anxiety is at an all time high, but amazingly enough I've been able to somewhat manage it without feeling like I'm going crazy. Don't get me wrong, many times I felt like I was losing my shit, and needed to visit my psychiatrist more often then my usual monthly appointment.
Saturday, 21 September 2013
Where Have I Been?!
So for those of you who read my blog on a regular basis, you've probably noticed that I've been mia for some time. Where have I been hiding? No where exciting unfortunately. Quite a bit has been going on in my life, and I've been debating how much to disclose. When I started this blog it was for therapeutic purposes, but with the increase of followers and family/friends reading, I've kind of lost that side and freedom.
I've been somewhat okay. I've been burdened with a fair amount of stress, but it's somewhat manageable compared to the past. I guess the huge difference is that I'm not depressed like before, God bless Prozac! I have however, had a number of panic attacks, and my anxiety has been crazy. How have I been managing it? I've been going to the gym at least three times a week, to help relax and relieve stress. Yoga has become a huge part of my life, which helps me unwind.
I've also been having a huge spell of insomnia lately, which I know probably will be followed with crazy fatigue. I know my body, and the patterns I go through. I'm so far behind in things, keep putting everything off. I have a shit load of product review to work on, as well as art for some people... portraits. My mind and heart just isn't in it at the moment, and I have trouble focusing. I'm not depressed like I was to the point of not wanting to live, but I'm still battling depression. It's a daily battle that I don't wish upon anyone.
Once again it's fairly late and I'm unable to sleep. Millions of things run thought my mind... it's a never ending story in my brain. I've been self medicating to manage everything, and I know it will eventually bite me in the ass.
Well that's enough rambling and torture for tonight... I will fill you all in on more gossip later. Have a great weekend and God bless.
I've been somewhat okay. I've been burdened with a fair amount of stress, but it's somewhat manageable compared to the past. I guess the huge difference is that I'm not depressed like before, God bless Prozac! I have however, had a number of panic attacks, and my anxiety has been crazy. How have I been managing it? I've been going to the gym at least three times a week, to help relax and relieve stress. Yoga has become a huge part of my life, which helps me unwind.
I've also been having a huge spell of insomnia lately, which I know probably will be followed with crazy fatigue. I know my body, and the patterns I go through. I'm so far behind in things, keep putting everything off. I have a shit load of product review to work on, as well as art for some people... portraits. My mind and heart just isn't in it at the moment, and I have trouble focusing. I'm not depressed like I was to the point of not wanting to live, but I'm still battling depression. It's a daily battle that I don't wish upon anyone.
Once again it's fairly late and I'm unable to sleep. Millions of things run thought my mind... it's a never ending story in my brain. I've been self medicating to manage everything, and I know it will eventually bite me in the ass.
Well that's enough rambling and torture for tonight... I will fill you all in on more gossip later. Have a great weekend and God bless.
Where Have I Been?!
So for those of you who read my blog on a regular basis, you've probably noticed that I've been mia for some time. Where have I been hiding? No where exciting unfortunately. Quite a bit has been going on in my life, and I've been debating how much to disclose. When I started this blog it was for therapeutic purposes, but with the increase of followers and family/friends reading, I've kind of lost that side and freedom.
I've been somewhat okay. I've been burdened with a fair amount of stress, but it's somewhat manageable compared to the past. I guess the huge difference is that I'm not depressed like before, God bless Prozac! I have however, had a number of panic attacks, and my anxiety has been crazy. How have I been managing it? I've been going to the gym at least three times a week, to help relax and relieve stress. Yoga has become a huge part of my life, which helps me unwind.
I've been somewhat okay. I've been burdened with a fair amount of stress, but it's somewhat manageable compared to the past. I guess the huge difference is that I'm not depressed like before, God bless Prozac! I have however, had a number of panic attacks, and my anxiety has been crazy. How have I been managing it? I've been going to the gym at least three times a week, to help relax and relieve stress. Yoga has become a huge part of my life, which helps me unwind.
Wednesday, 22 May 2013
Medical Update
Once again I'm stuck with another night of insomnia. I've been getting only about 2 hours of sleep every night, and haven't been feeling too well. I don't know if it's due to stress, but my anxiety seems to be acting up as well. Maybe it's because of the last month with the added stressors. Which I should probably update you and let you all know that mom is doing well.
The last month I've taken on more then I have in over a year or so. With mom having surgery, it forced me to take on more responsibility. Really at my age I should be fully independent however, it's such a struggle due to my anxiety, depression, and agoraphobia. The last few weeks I've been taking the bus around town to visit mom, visit grandma, and running errands. On top of that I had gone back to work... and boom... stress overload.
I really just want to get a good nights sleep, so I don't feel so stressed and anxious. I wake up feeling sick, tired, just completely unwell. At least I'm eating well... although I haven't lost any more weight. Hopefully I can finally get some rest, relax my mind, and continue on the road to a better me.
The last month I've taken on more then I have in over a year or so. With mom having surgery, it forced me to take on more responsibility. Really at my age I should be fully independent however, it's such a struggle due to my anxiety, depression, and agoraphobia. The last few weeks I've been taking the bus around town to visit mom, visit grandma, and running errands. On top of that I had gone back to work... and boom... stress overload.
I really just want to get a good nights sleep, so I don't feel so stressed and anxious. I wake up feeling sick, tired, just completely unwell. At least I'm eating well... although I haven't lost any more weight. Hopefully I can finally get some rest, relax my mind, and continue on the road to a better me.
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Medical Update
Once again I'm stuck with another night of insomnia. I've been getting only about 2 hours of sleep every night, and haven't been feeling too well. I don't know if it's due to stress, but my anxiety seems to be acting up as well. Maybe it's because of the last month with the added stressors. Which I should probably update you and let you all know that mom is doing well.
The last month I've taken on more then I have in over a year or so. With mom having surgery, it forced me to take on more responsibility. Really at my age I should be fully independent however, it's such a struggle due to my anxiety, depression, and agoraphobia. The last few weeks I've been taking the bus around town to visit mom, visit grandma, and running errands. On top of that I had gone back to work... and boom... stress overload.
I really just want to get a good nights sleep, so I don't feel so stressed and anxious. I wake up feeling sick, tired, just completely unwell. At least I'm eating well... although I haven't lost any more weight. Hopefully I can finally get some rest, relax my mind, and continue on the road to a better me.
The last month I've taken on more then I have in over a year or so. With mom having surgery, it forced me to take on more responsibility. Really at my age I should be fully independent however, it's such a struggle due to my anxiety, depression, and agoraphobia. The last few weeks I've been taking the bus around town to visit mom, visit grandma, and running errands. On top of that I had gone back to work... and boom... stress overload.
I really just want to get a good nights sleep, so I don't feel so stressed and anxious. I wake up feeling sick, tired, just completely unwell. At least I'm eating well... although I haven't lost any more weight. Hopefully I can finally get some rest, relax my mind, and continue on the road to a better me.
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Monday, 29 April 2013
Where Have I Been Hiding? Medical Update!
Some of you are probably wondering where I've been hiding the last little while. Well, I'm actually back to work. I went back over a week ago, and it's been keeping me quite busy. I'm still trying to adjust to getting up and working eight hours... which has been far too long since the last time. I've gone through some crazy shit prior to this, and I haven't filled you all in on everything. Where do I begin? Gee... I don't know! Lets just say that the last couple weeks I actually feel better then I've felt in years.
I'm actually on less medication then I used to be, and surprisingly enough, I feel better. I look back now and wonder if I was over medicated... who really knows? I guess with all the surgeries I've had, and crazy changes that my body has gone through... it's taken this long to finally regulate. I'm now only on Prozac in the morning, and no longer on the Seroquel and Clonazepam at night. Coming off those two medications were a complete nightmare... but since I found out I was pregnant I had to stop taking them. Unfortunately, I had a miscarriage a few weeks back, which resulted in having minor surgery (D&C).
Do I want kids? Yes. I would prefer to wait a few years until we try, as with the health issues I have it really should be planned.
With everything that's been going on... I'm a little behind in blogging. I haven't forgotten about my followers or up coming giveaways... stay tuned for some fun stuff!
I'm actually on less medication then I used to be, and surprisingly enough, I feel better. I look back now and wonder if I was over medicated... who really knows? I guess with all the surgeries I've had, and crazy changes that my body has gone through... it's taken this long to finally regulate. I'm now only on Prozac in the morning, and no longer on the Seroquel and Clonazepam at night. Coming off those two medications were a complete nightmare... but since I found out I was pregnant I had to stop taking them. Unfortunately, I had a miscarriage a few weeks back, which resulted in having minor surgery (D&C).
Do I want kids? Yes. I would prefer to wait a few years until we try, as with the health issues I have it really should be planned.
With everything that's been going on... I'm a little behind in blogging. I haven't forgotten about my followers or up coming giveaways... stay tuned for some fun stuff!
Where Have I Been Hiding? Medical Update!
Some of you are probably wondering where I've been hiding the last little while. Well, I'm actually back to work. I went back over a week ago, and it's been keeping me quite busy. I'm still trying to adjust to getting up and working eight hours... which has been far too long since the last time. I've gone through some crazy shit prior to this, and I haven't filled you all in on everything. Where do I begin? Gee... I don't know! Lets just say that the last couple weeks I actually feel better then I've felt in years.
I'm actually on less medication then I used to be, and surprisingly enough, I feel better. I look back now and wonder if I was over medicated... who really knows? I guess with all the surgeries I've had, and crazy changes that my body has gone through... it's taken this long to finally regulate. I'm now only on Prozac in the morning, and no longer on the Seroquel and Clonazepam at night. Coming off those two medications were a complete nightmare... but since I found out I was pregnant I had to stop taking them. Unfortunately, I had a miscarriage a few weeks back, which resulted in having minor surgery (D&C).
I'm actually on less medication then I used to be, and surprisingly enough, I feel better. I look back now and wonder if I was over medicated... who really knows? I guess with all the surgeries I've had, and crazy changes that my body has gone through... it's taken this long to finally regulate. I'm now only on Prozac in the morning, and no longer on the Seroquel and Clonazepam at night. Coming off those two medications were a complete nightmare... but since I found out I was pregnant I had to stop taking them. Unfortunately, I had a miscarriage a few weeks back, which resulted in having minor surgery (D&C).
Monday, 25 February 2013
Fighting Depression and Anxiety: Controlling Your Environment
Those of us who struggle with Depression and Anxiety know that our inner selves are often deeply affected by the external. External things can happen that will trigger a sense of deep sadness, or a spiral down a drain that feels uncontrollable. While Depression and Anxiety are not easy to cure, there are things you can do to help create and maintain a living space that will support you in feeling calmer, safer, and happier.
The Do What You Can Plan
Depression makes everything harder, because it’s difficult to be motivated. Often exhaustion accompanies Depression, and the lack of hope you feel may cause you to wonder what the worth is in maintaining your environment. One of the best ways to fight Depression is to continue with your life, even when you’re feeling sad or alone. That isn't easy, so even if you take just five minutes every day to create some order, you’ll hopefully begin to feel a sense of control. Straighten a drawer. Throw out some old beauty products you no longer use. Dust a shelf. Make your bed. Often accomplishing something can help ease the pain of Depression, and feeling control can help calm Anxiety.
Add Elements that Inspire You
Bringing life into your space can help renew your sense of life. Brightly colored fish in a tank will bring some color and life into your space. Swallow Aquatics have a range of cheap fish tanks that can set you up to bring home your fish. Do a bit of research on what types of fish you’d like, and what equipment you’ll need to properly care for the fish. Set them up in a place you’ll see them often.
Set Yourself Up for Success
If external elements like loud roommates or neighbors add to your struggle with Depression, set up some elements in your space to help drown out those voices. At night, use ear plugs or a soothing sleep machine to help your body and mind find rest. Invest in a sleep mask if outdoor lights shining in through your window are the problem. Help set some boundaries with roommates by discussing what is a reasonable volume. If you have trouble calming your mind down from the Anxieties of the day, implement some bedtime activities, such as journaling, or even doing a few mind puzzles such as Sudoku to divert and focus your mind.
The Do What You Can Plan
Depression makes everything harder, because it’s difficult to be motivated. Often exhaustion accompanies Depression, and the lack of hope you feel may cause you to wonder what the worth is in maintaining your environment. One of the best ways to fight Depression is to continue with your life, even when you’re feeling sad or alone. That isn't easy, so even if you take just five minutes every day to create some order, you’ll hopefully begin to feel a sense of control. Straighten a drawer. Throw out some old beauty products you no longer use. Dust a shelf. Make your bed. Often accomplishing something can help ease the pain of Depression, and feeling control can help calm Anxiety.
Add Elements that Inspire You
Bringing life into your space can help renew your sense of life. Brightly colored fish in a tank will bring some color and life into your space. Swallow Aquatics have a range of cheap fish tanks that can set you up to bring home your fish. Do a bit of research on what types of fish you’d like, and what equipment you’ll need to properly care for the fish. Set them up in a place you’ll see them often.
Set Yourself Up for Success
If external elements like loud roommates or neighbors add to your struggle with Depression, set up some elements in your space to help drown out those voices. At night, use ear plugs or a soothing sleep machine to help your body and mind find rest. Invest in a sleep mask if outdoor lights shining in through your window are the problem. Help set some boundaries with roommates by discussing what is a reasonable volume. If you have trouble calming your mind down from the Anxieties of the day, implement some bedtime activities, such as journaling, or even doing a few mind puzzles such as Sudoku to divert and focus your mind.
Fighting Depression and Anxiety: Controlling Your Environment
Those of us who struggle with Depression and Anxiety know that our inner selves are often deeply affected by the external. External things can happen that will trigger a sense of deep sadness, or a spiral down a drain that feels uncontrollable. While Depression and Anxiety are not easy to cure, there are things you can do to help create and maintain a living space that will support you in feeling calmer, safer, and happier.
The Do What You Can Plan
Depression makes everything harder, because it’s difficult to be motivated. Often exhaustion accompanies Depression, and the lack of hope you feel may cause you to wonder what the worth is in maintaining your environment. One of the best ways to fight Depression is to continue with your life, even when you’re feeling sad or alone. That isn't easy, so even if you take just five minutes every day to create some order, you’ll hopefully begin to feel a sense of control. Straighten a drawer. Throw out some old beauty products you no longer use. Dust a shelf. Make your bed. Often accomplishing something can help ease the pain of Depression, and feeling control can help calm Anxiety.
The Do What You Can Plan
Depression makes everything harder, because it’s difficult to be motivated. Often exhaustion accompanies Depression, and the lack of hope you feel may cause you to wonder what the worth is in maintaining your environment. One of the best ways to fight Depression is to continue with your life, even when you’re feeling sad or alone. That isn't easy, so even if you take just five minutes every day to create some order, you’ll hopefully begin to feel a sense of control. Straighten a drawer. Throw out some old beauty products you no longer use. Dust a shelf. Make your bed. Often accomplishing something can help ease the pain of Depression, and feeling control can help calm Anxiety.
Sunday, 24 February 2013
Medical Update
Tonight I'm at my mom's place, as I have an appointment with a specialist tomorrow. I'm finally seeing the doctor that runs the eating disorder groups at the hospital where I've been going to therapy. I'm terrified, and excited at the same time. I know I have a major eating disorder, but embarrassed at the same time... because you wouldn't normally think I have one. It's not like you would look at me and think, wow... she's too skinny... she might have an eating disorder. A couple years ago you would of looked at me and think wow... she's obese and unhealthy. Now you would look at me and think... oh, she's normal or a little chubby.
I find my eating disorder is at it's worst when I'm really depressed, having regular panic attacks, and lacking sleep. That's pretty much my life the last little while... depression is still present and taking over my life. I find myself lacking motivation to eat, and I go without eating all day... until I'm ready to pass out. Then I binge and eat poor choices, even though it's only a small portion due to the gastric bypass. Then once I realize what I've done... I feel guilty and sick, and force myself to drink extra water to help flush it out. Rule after gastric bypass... no drinking 30 minutes before or after eating, as it flushes it through your stomach and intestines too fast. When that happens, you end up having dumping syndrome... resulting in pain, loss of food, and most importantly... loss of nutrients of what was just eaten. My hair is thinning still, and falling out. I don't have nearly the amount of hair I used to. I know I'm sick... I know I have a problem... many problems. Hopefully I will feel better soon.
I find my eating disorder is at it's worst when I'm really depressed, having regular panic attacks, and lacking sleep. That's pretty much my life the last little while... depression is still present and taking over my life. I find myself lacking motivation to eat, and I go without eating all day... until I'm ready to pass out. Then I binge and eat poor choices, even though it's only a small portion due to the gastric bypass. Then once I realize what I've done... I feel guilty and sick, and force myself to drink extra water to help flush it out. Rule after gastric bypass... no drinking 30 minutes before or after eating, as it flushes it through your stomach and intestines too fast. When that happens, you end up having dumping syndrome... resulting in pain, loss of food, and most importantly... loss of nutrients of what was just eaten. My hair is thinning still, and falling out. I don't have nearly the amount of hair I used to. I know I'm sick... I know I have a problem... many problems. Hopefully I will feel better soon.
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