Can't Sleep

I just woke up and feel like shit. It's 3am and I hate being alone at a time like this. I woke up and I knew that I was going to have a panic attack... so I called mommy. What's mommy going to do? Well really nothing since she lives like twenty minutes away... but whenever I don't feel good mommy makes me feel better!



Now that I think about it, I have been feeling off for a few days now. During those few days I cut back on my eating and been having just soup or a tomato sandwich. Over a week ago I was weighing at 300Lbs, and now I'm at 279.5! Like holy crap... in less then a week I dropped 20Lbs. Okay, so it's mostly water weight... but that's fuckin awesome. Too bad I feel like shit right now... but this is the perfect time to try and shrink my stomach and finally get on a diet.



I purposly didn't want to chose a new years resolution since I would break it... ya I know... I seem positive! Well I'm feeling fired up and I truely believe I can do this. I spoke to mom on the phone for like half an hour now... oh poor mommy for me waking her up. At least while I'm sick I've noticed the furry beast Mr Jingles clining to me... he doesn't want to leave my side. Okay... so he does leave my side as he gets bored... but he always seems to come back to check up on me.