Depressed

Tonight I was supposed to see some old friends that I haven't seen in like seven years, but I'm not going because I feel so fat. I know they'd be thinking... wow she sure got fat. I'm jobless, fat, and getting divorced...wow I'm a real loser right now. As you can probably tell... I'm feeling very depressed today. I was starting to get ready and figure out what I was going to wear tonight, and nothing fits. With me being off for over a month I have put on weight. I was planning on wearing jeans... well I feel like I'm going to explode out of them.
My anxiety and depression is getting worse...making me really struggle with everything. I don't even want to go out anymore. I just feel so down.