The Start of A New Week

Good Monday everyone! Well it's a fresh start to a new week. It's pretty and sunny outside and I'm locked in my apartment. Obviously my anxiety has been acting up more then usual. It's probably got something to do with the fact that Rachid is a jackass and I'm ready for divorce! Oh, and probably because I'm jobless as well...but hey...lets blame it on the men, it's so much easier that way!

I find out Friday of this week if I did well on my assessment at Telus. This will feel like the longest week of my life waiting for that day. I pray that I did good on the test. I know that I'd be perfect for that job...just whether they realise it...plus I would still have to go for a 1 on 1 interview...freaky! I've gone on so many interviews in my life now that I'm a pro! Hardly...I hate going for them. I feel like they judge me because I'm fat and just assume that I'm lazy. I kick ass when I work...I'm far from lazy with my work.

The two men of the house are still in bed and it's going for 3pm. Rachid is snoring...and jingles is snoring away as well. Well kittie snoring that is! Awww...he's so cute. I wonder how he would be if I do move from here? Jingles has only known this apartment since he was a baby...he will freak if we move. I have to get out of here though...I'm at the point where I'm looking for basement apartments for like $600-$700 a month. I want to move for August 1st...I have to leave him for good. Every time I make my mind up...he's all sweet for a few hours and I second guess it. But then later he will have a fit and break things or hit me. I can't live like this anymore...I need to get my life back.

Anyway...I should run to the post office and mail something someone bought from Ebay, and I have to write a cheque from my credit card to make rent...Rachid didn't help me for my portion of rent.