Ready to Get My Life Back

Tomorrow I'm back to work finally. I've been off for quite a while and it will feel weird going back. I always feel so lazy once I go back and I become rusty when it comes to up selling. The month is almost over, so I only have this week to work on my stats. So far I know that my time for the month is good, but I have no idea what my quality is. I'm keeping my fingers crossed so that I will qualify for the monthly bonus. I work my ass off and I deserve it dammit! Plus I am really looking forward to getting the bonus because I'm kind of depending on it for bills.

I know that when I'm depending on something it doesn't usually happen. I should just get ready for crappy results. Ya I know I seem negative...I have a feeling that if I'm not I will be disappointed. And speaking of disappointed...the ass at home still doesn't want to contribute to any of the bills. He still owes me for the benefits that I paid for through my work for dental ($235/annual), and ($500) for 50% of the new computer that we bought. I have never met such a cheap, stingy person in my life.

Anyway, I am looking for a 1 bedroom apartment and I want to move on my own. I'm sick and tired of being treated like shit and taken advantage of. I deserve better. I keep getting fatter and he is a huge part of why I'm so depressed. I need to take back my life...I need to get back to me.